Showing posts from April, 2007

Your First Love

I awoke quite disturbed from a dream the other morning. It was even more tortuous that it was so similar to one I had a few weeks prior - only one character had changed. I was at a family gathering with my parents and sisters and their families. I was with a former love and there was no indication of my husband or of my children. My former love and I were holding of hands.

YUCK - what was that all about?!?! Why is my brain going there when I am asleep? And to have two dreams that were very similar, except a different former love. I have cut ties. I know that I know that I know that my husband is the man I was to marry.

So I asked God, what is the meaning of all this? And he says "Don't forget your first love - don't go down the road of your previous loves." The next morning I read Jeremiah 3:1 . . . would not the land be completely defiled? But you have lived as a prostitute with many lovers - would you now return to me?' declares the Lord. And verse 3 which says…

Psalm 143 - David's Version & Kim's Response

It had been a dry spell about a month ago - a short period of not feeling the presence of God. Oh, I know he was there and I was seeking, but I felt bombarded by the arrows of the enemy. And God, in his faithfulness, speaks to me one morning through Psalm 143. I couldn't help but weep. It was as if David had written this for me - my thoughts, my struggles were penned by the words he wrote so long ago. Have you been there? Do you know that desperation? (In case it isn't obvious, my words are in CAPS)

O Lord, hear my prayer, HELP ME GOD
listen to my cry for mercy; I KNOW I DON'T DESERVE YOUR MERCY
in your faithfulness and righteousness THIS IS WHO YOU ARE
come to my relief. YOU ARE MY DELIVERER
Do not bring your servant into judgment, THOUGH I SO DESERVE IT
for no one living is righteous before you. NOT EVEN ONE WHO LOOKS MOST RIGHTEOUS
The enemy pursues me, HE IS RELENTLESS
he crushes me to the ground; I AM PRESSED, SQUEEZED, OVERWHELMED
he makes me dwell in darkness…