Smashing the Idol . . . of Efficiency

I like to be efficient - I think it's a good thing - it's productive, not to waste time or energy . . . most people would agree. Do you see where this is going though? I, I, I . . . this morning as life was not going efficiently and realized all the things that would take so much longer to do today because because yesterday was thrown off schedule and things got moved back . . .

Suddenly, the Holy Spirit reminded me (He's so good and gentle) of the problem with efficiency. Is it good? . . . to "be performing or functioning in the best possible manner with the least waste of time and effort; having and using requisite knowledge, skill, and industry; competent; capable" as Webster says. Probably, in and of itself. But like many things in our lives, when that thing or that characteristic becomes more important and brings us more satisfication that Christ himself . . . not so good.

So it broke my heart this morning that I had broke His heart by allowing efficiency to bring me satisfication - what messed up my thinking? Jesus, help me to be okay with things not going smoothly and taking more time than I would have like or than I thought should be allowed. How the words ring so true from Chris Sligh's song: "Empty me . . . of any foolish thing my heart holds true, oh empty me of me, so I can be . . . filled with You"