Don't Touch the Crown - It's all I Have!

The life of Esther . . . oh the volumes it speaks in 10 short chapters . . . rich with lessons ... the unspoken speaks volumes . . . and then there is the most memorable verse part "If you keep quiet at a time like this, deliverance and relief for the Jews will arise from some other place, but you and your relatives will die. Who knows if perhaps you were made queen for just such a time as this?” And all she can think is "Don't touch the crown - it's all I have to hold onto right now!" As Beth Moore points out, the answer to every "who knows" question is God knows. Just look at how many times He reassures us in His word that "I know" . . . I know the plans I have for you . . . And He is your deliverer . . .

I love the lyrics from Chris Tomlin's "My Deliverer"

I will wait for You to move
For Your mighty hand to save
When the trouble waters rise
You are my hiding place

Your walls are salvation
Your gates are praise

My Deliverer
My Deliverer
My Deliverer
Is the Lord

Who is like You mighty God
Who can take me from Your hand ....
As I walk with You in freedom
You're the Rock on which I stand
You're the Rock on which I stand

So that is what has got me thinking . . . What is the crown or crowns I'm holding on to - as if they are my only lifelines? What am I seeking deliverance from? These situations in my life that I would just like to be done with and on the other side of . . . funny how they don't get resolved until I come to that place in Him where I am no longer seeking relief from the circumstance, but my heart is truly asking the questions "What do you want me to learn in this? What do you want to reveal about Yourself to me?" Just as Job's afflictions left him with a higher conception of God and lowlier thoughts of himself.

He has promised to be my Deliverer and He is the Rock on which I stand, but I am coming to the conclusion that some times, I need to be delivered from myself, my wrong thoughts, perceptions, and attitudes.

"The capacity for knowing God enlarges as we are brought by Him circumstances that oblige us to exercise faith; so, when difficulties best our path, let us thank God that He is taking trouble with us and learn hard upon Him." Streams in the Desert

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