Sunday, July 11, 2010

Deep Excavation

The morning jog - outside.

I couldn't escape the yearning to be outside this morning. You have to know that I usually wouldn't go running outside at 8:30 a.m. this time of year. This is the land of too humid, too much sun beating on you and that sick to your stomach feeling from getting overheated. Not for this girl. But today it was overcast and didn't feel too bad. So out I went.

Because I had a feeling . . . He was calling.

I had a feeling . . . He had a message that He wanted to speak to me.

The clouds were becoming darker, this is why it was overcast and cooler :-) and the rain was imminent. And so was the message:

As I hit the turnaround point, I again passed by this mess of construction alongside the road. The ground by the beautiful golf course is all dug up for new pipes. The sign reads: "Deep Excavation."

Hmmmmmmm . . .

I ponder the "Deep Excavation" in my life . . . lately I've been responding to things in a very emotional manner, which is not how I would normally respond. And I thought God had dealt with these emotional feelings in particular, but guess I need new pipes to reroute because the old ones weren't doing the job anymore. And the work - it's deep. Not surface, or just below the ground, like before, but deep.

Beloved, as situations arise that take you off guard, your first instinct will be to react emotionally. But, if you will exercise self-control and quiet your soul, you can respond according to the unction of My Spirit instead of reacting in the flesh, which will produce a better outcome, says the Lord. I tell you this so that you can be alert because the enemy is looking to gain the advantage over you.

1 Peter 5:8 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.

I ponder the "Out of Service" sign on the fire hydrant. Yeah - some areas in my life feel like they have this big "Out of Service" sign: responding selflessly to my family, responding kindly to my family, the list goes on. And just like there is no emergency flow of water from that point due to the reinstalling of those pipes underground, so there is no flow of the Spirit at points in my life. I respond in the flesh. But He is doing some "Deep Excavation" to work on that.

And immediately after this revelation as I am crying out along with the song "Let it Rain" on my iPod, it begins to do just that . . . it rains.
So refreshing.
So needed.
To loosen up the soil for the deep excavation.
And you know what else - those pesky birds that have been chasing me don't like to fly in the rain . . .

O what a beautiful morning!

PS As I jogged by today, months after originally writing this post, I notice the "deep excavation" is almost complete. There are signs of new grass growing and new access points to the source of the water below, so it can flow. Holy Spirit flow through me.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

The Precipice

Prec-i-pice (pres-uh-pis) n. 1. An overhanging or extremely steep mass of rock, such as a crag or the face of a cliff. 2. The brink of a dangerous or disastrous situation

We went for a walk the other night. Searching for a new path, a different view of this massive ocean that surrounds us. This is what we found! We walked through what appeared to be the crater of an ancient volcano and followed the path. Right up to the edge. Standing on the edge, the precipice - it felt like the edge of the world . . . one more step and I'm gone.

And the thought, the question of the day, the prompting and searching of the Holy Spirit: how often it FEELS that way. "I'm on the edge ... Lord, don't you see me here? If I take one more step I'm gone. I'm going off the 'deep end' never to be found again."

And He says incredulously, "REALLY?!" (You're going with what you FEEL on this - not what you KNOW?)

Because this is what I KNOW:

The One who says I know all the days ordained for you I wrote them in my book before one of them came to be. PSALM 139:16

The One who says I saw you when you were formed in the secret place. PSALM 139:15

The One who says I know the plans I have for you. JEREMIAH 29:11

And why do I act like I am on the brink of a dangerous of disastrous situation?

So I read in Springs in the Valley "There must be the full confidence that we are safe in this abandonment; that we are not falling over a precipice . . . but that we are sinking into the Fathers' arms and stepping into an infinite inheritance . . . Oh it is an infinite privilege to be permitted thus to give ourselves up to One who pledge Himself to make us all that we would love to be - all that His infinite wisdom, power and love will delight to accomplish in us!

So He says "step into My love, step into My arms, step into My plans, step into My ways. I see right where you are. I know you are looking at what's right in front of you and you can't see what I can see. You don't see what I am accomplishing as you trusting me with all these details of your upcoming trip, or My hand upon your son who about to go off to college, or my wisdom for your children's school curriculum next year. But you're not stepping off a cliff here. Step into Me."